Daily Thoughts: Finding truth in a world of fog

It’s been a while since I’ve posted my daily thoughts, partly because the past couple of months have been tough, and partly because I started developing this horrible habit. My mind has become clouded by thoughts. It’s been negative versus negative. As a kid I was taught to hide my emotions and that was the start of this negative self-talk, that constant little voice that kept telling me “I was never good enough anyways”. It still is a constant battle I fight till this day; the only difference now is that I now know I am in control of my thought, emotions and actions. I choose to seek positivity in every situation. Instead of asking myself “why is this happening to me?” I ask myself “what can I learn from this?”.

Someone once shared with me this quote.

“Either you must control your thoughts or the outside forces will control them and be warned that the outside forces usually consist of fears, worries and doubts.” 

I went through the last couple of month in a haze, trying to capture a sense of clarity. And the more I fought it the thicker is became. The constant conversations were so negative and loud that I couldn’t find hope. It was if I was being suffocated by my own mind. It was swallowing me up whole and I couldn’t get out. My first thought was to surround myself with family and friends that lift me up but it didn’t work. I found that I started pushing people away, I became closed off and I didn’t care. I looked for answers in someone else when I, had all the answers.
It wasn’t until my absolute worse thought came across, I knew I had to pick myself back up and move forward. I spent time alone with myself and my thoughts. I went to my darkest place knowing that I would be strong enough to get myself out, I cried and I hated the thoughts that used to consume. And with one positive action, I became more and more aware of my own reactions. Each day I would do something that my mind said I couldn’t do, and when I did it, another voice spoke louder “I knew you could do it”. I started listening to that voice, little changes that made big difference. Instead of becoming a slave to that negative self-talk, I became a prophet of positivity.

For example, waking up the first thing I thought about were the people I loved and how thankful for having them in my life. I thank the universe for letting me have one more day to live out my purpose. Waking up with a grateful heart started changing my response to the world negativity. Now, it’s a challenge I fully accept.

I shared this with you because I know how easy it is to get trapped in an endless dark hole and how hard it can be to get out of it. But you can get out it, you have to trust yourself.

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