The Learning Experience

By Sassysamey - 3:25 PM


The past couple of years have been nothing but a learning experience. Its crazy to think back and see the progress I’ve made. It’s a bit overwhelming but I wanted to share with you my thoughts and my journey. So let’s start from the beginning, shall we? Right out of high school my plan was to go straight to a Cal State, but fate said… “nope, not this day”. At the time I thought it was the worst thing ever, but looking back it was a blessing in disguise. Funny how everything always works out. If you’re in a bad place in your life just do what I do… Yell “PLOT TWIST” and then move on.

I started my YouTube channel… Sassysamey, because I thought it would be fun to review products and get my foot in the beauty world. Growing up I never really thought much of makeup, skincare or anything beauty related for that matter. You could call me a tomboy, I loved fishing, sports and board games. But then I discovered YouTube beauty community and a fire ignited in me that I had never felt before. I wanted to expand my channel and then start Blogging just because it sounded fun. But then life happened, and I started going down this spiral of being nonproductive. And for me it was horrible, I’m what you can call a busy body so for me to take a break and not do anything was weird. I hated not doing anything, I took a year off school, I didn’t have a full time job, I lost my car. But I always felt blessed, I knew that life would get better. It was one decision  I made to myself and slowly I found things coming together. One of my mentors once quoted Ralph Waldo Emerson who said

Once you make a decision, the universe conspires to make it happen”

I knew that at the end of this year (2014), I would be going back to school, planning my education path to my degrees, Buying my car, getting a full time job. I didn’t know how it would happen but knew it would happen, I had this gut feeling that everything would work out. I started to put in motion how I wanted to end this year, each step I took brought me that much closer to my goals. On the days where I felt like I was doing nothing with my life and I felt helpless, I changed my thoughts and the questions I consistantly asked myself. It went from “why me? Why am I such a loser? Why can’t I do this” to “Why not me? Why am I so awesome? Damn this is easy to do”.  Anthony Robbins said

“ The quality of your life are based upon the quality of questions you ask yourself”

And I took it to heart, every time I felt like I was being negative towards myself, I changed my thinking. I became more aware of my self-talk. The conversations I had with myself became more about loving myself rather than hating myself. It was crazy how I my world became so much more, I woke up every day  feeling blessed and loved. I have continued to be thankful for everything in my life, I started listing at least two to three things  I am grateful for and I found that I have so much, I never really realized how fortunate I am. And that’s the same for everyone, I think sometimes we forget to just be in the moment, to count our blessings, to be aware that we don’t just have darkness but also light. I’ve noticed that the people around me were always focused on what is wrong in their lives rather then what is right. 

 Being completely lost the last few years, I found out so much about myself. I realized the power I had in myself, the power to change what I feel, how I react, what I think and say. I started to understand  why I reacted a certain way and how I can now change the outcome. The progess I’ve made was a slow process but I’m starting to figure out that its okay to go slow, as long as I’m moving forward. So this year (2015) I’m looking forward to all the different adventures I’ll be having. :)

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